Sad.

"Nothing comes to be, simply because someone declares it so".

Hopefully you girls will never have to read this, because it's really meant for you to have if I don't get to have you back it our lives. Alyssa, you were on my mind especially much last night...you have been Nana's girl and were even calling me "Nana-Mama" just a year ago. It's you I worry about the most..Laila, you are so young. Wendy and Kevin are the only parents you really know right now. I miss you as much as I miss your sister, you know that. But Liss, you remember me and Papa, I know you do. All I heard in my head last night was you asking me when you could go home. Honey, I'm trying. I really am.

So, all of the Christmas decorations are down. I have your stockings and your ornaments put carefully aside and I hope next year you two will be able to hang them.